Riding high, Feeling low

Funny how you can be feeling two (or ten) such contradictory feelings at the same time. Its quite overwhelming for the mind to take and then you end up randomly switching from hyper cheerful to depressingly mopey at the flutter of an eyelash.

I'm quite stoked at the play-up of my stories from Labuan. I put a lot of thought into the articles and it came out almost as exact as I put in, complete with pictures and quotes. Cant get much better, Can't have it all. In a national paper, you take what you can get, especially when you're this far away from the HQ as I am.

That got me inspired for awhile (all of two days) and now I'm back to normal. The fluctuations between the highs and the lows are quite dizzying.

I miss my good friends. I like to think I'm generally not a terrible friend but can't seem to keep many good friends for long. Things are great for a couple of months. Have a really good laugh, trust each other with the details of your life at the moment and do most things together... then suddenly something happens, expectations change, conversations don't longer flow as easily and well, the things you used to find funny and unique about each other suddenly gets you annoyed.
Aren't friendships meant to be treated almost like relationships? Aren't you supposed to give it your best, hold back the judgement, dish out the irks, try your best to make it work?
I try, honest I do, to make my close friendships last. But more often than not, they just whittle away, the closeness if not the friendship itself and eventually is forgotten, as good as dead.

Wonder what am I doing wrong? Anyone care to comment?